It’s a topic that has been whirling around my head for a little while; I have totally fallen out of love with Instagram.
But now, it’s a constant niggling thought that I haven’t taken any “aesthetic ” photos or that I haven’t done anything exciting enough to be showing off about.
Because that’s all social media really is, to show off all the good, positive, happy things.
But good points can be great, like job opportunities, holidays, new purchases and exciting things happening.
And whilst I obviously love seeing all this positivity on social media, it’s gotten to the point where it can be slightly tinged with jealousy.
I begin to think, I’m 21 now. Should I be driving and owning my own car by now? Should I be in a fulfilling career? Should I already know by now exactly what I want to do in life? Should I be going on holidays more, or saving to travel the world?
But with social media, people only ever put out what other people want to see: the good.
Everyone has down days, sad moments, crappy feelings and yet it’s never really shown.
And because of this, I feel like Instagram feels like a chore at the moment, because I don’t have anything exciting or interesting to post.
At the beginning of the year, I had so many plans and days out to look forward to, like going to Lady Dinah’s Cat Emporium, going on a weekend break to Budapest and Barcelona, planning more holidays and various other things like spa trips, clothes I was buying and new restaurants I was trying.
But March just seems dry; but that’s okay.
I just need to learn that it’s okay not to be on the go all the time and that I should be doing more to make me happy. Like reading more, going for walks, learning to cook new meals and taking the plunge to commit to driving lessons.
It’s important to realise that it’s okay not to be busy 24/7, it’s okay to not be doing something every single weekend in the aid of an Instagram post, it’s okay to post the good, the bad and the ugly.
I have plenty of things to look forward to this year; like a weekend trip to Pisa with my friend, a week in Weymouth with my boyfriend and other potential holidays, festivals and outings in the pipeline. I also really want to get my head down and find a suitable career path in Digital Marketing, whether it be in PR, content writing or social media.
I’m sure my love for Instagram will reappear soon enough, but for now it’s all feeling a little toxic, degrading and just unattractive with the new crappy algorithm, fake followers and spam comments. It’s hard to grow a following with these battling factors but I’m sure I’ll make it work at some point.
I almost feel a twinge of guilt for writing negatively when in fact I do feel a real passion about social media and want to persue a career in it; but I’m sure others can relate. I’m sure if I keep in mind that as long as I post what pleases me, as opposed to posting to fit in with a theme, I’ll be back in love with Instagram in no time at all. ❤️️
Do you have a love/hate relationship with Instagram? How do you feel about the platform? Let me know!